finally she got the job~but...she misunderstand me again...

jus nw b4 work..i was walkin alone in pasar malam...suddenly she pop out from bhind..i was kinda surprise coz its like she's so happy 2 see me...but then..she told me she quit the job at the tuition center..tat moment..the pieces of left over of my heart drop til the very end of the black hole...i was so so so shock n sad n alot of feelings...i keep thinkin..shit,then we cant mmet again..then how am i gonna chase her bac..how..argghh~!!!!i was so sad tat time n she told me tat coz she pass the interview..n she's gonna start her trainin soon after she go 4 medical check up...even tho tat time i was very happy 2 hear tat news..coz tats wat we promised b4..n tats wat i hope as well..but my face jus cant show the ''happy'' expression coz of the ''i quit the job''...my mind is spinin around tat sentence..bt she misunderstand tat when she told me somthin happy..i look sad...i was like..i din..n i try my best 2 explain..but she told me dun force myself if im not..i was so sad n angry tat time..force myself..yea..i am..i am forcin my self..im doin tat 4 the pass whole month n nw onli u realise??!!!halo..miss..u'r doin the same as well~!!!duh~obviously she deny again..but can see...its wasnt true from wat comin out from her mouth which say she's not...n she say i got wat so worried n sad..my bf should b sad...again..tis time..i nearly say it out..i mean..??haha..so funny...since when..he??tat guy..ur bf?come on..yea..name..but real..no..u n i we both noe tat...n if its not coz of me..he??wait 4 another hundred years..he treated u like tat..even til nw...he still doesnt noe how 2 appreciate u...ur bf?he jus treat u as som1 or somthin when he nid u..he calls u..when he dun..he'll jus kik u away..bf??yea..BastardFucker....but u'r still so determine..4 wat..?me?even tho u come bac..i can still handle it..plus..nw im facin serious problems wif my studies..very stressful..i nid u even more 2 b wif me n support me like b4...still remember??''faith n support''...but where r u nw..ask urself ying..jus wake up n come bac..