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well...2day is my 1st day of math in college...in the new buildin..i mean...the 1st lesson was bout indices,roots n logarithem...i think i spelled it wrongly but nvm..well..arghh~!!!fuck..shit...!!!wat the fuck am i talkin..scl..?!!arghh..i cant even think of anythin nw..am i really tat bad..?4 the sick of god...yea..HE's sick..wtf!!!!wats wrong wif me..??y u like 2 test me so much..?!!!if i fail..jus fail me..y u wann keep on testin me..??!!!am i some sort of angel or stuff..u wan me 2 past the exam n go bac 2 heaven or wat..??stop testin me n jus take me away..!!!!i had enuf suffer over here..yes!!enuf!!!appretiate..yea..i dunno how 2 appretiate it..no matter how good i try..no1 will jue look into my hard work...no..ppl called it as shit work..ppl around me called it...n every1 who's readin bout it nw will b thinkin..tis guys..no hope..onli noe how 2 blame the god..pity him..usless..watever..u guys dun hv the right 2 judge me..i judge myself..no..no 1 hv..not even me..cz i dun even dare 2 judge myself..nw im jus like a little mouse..a dirty little mouse..no matter how good it is..when ppl saw it..they'll jus try their best 2 kill it..even tho it never bite or spoil anythin...u ppl hv no right 2 do it..u dun hv the right 2 do tis..take away everythin of mine..how could u..i try my best 2 start of my life n i suppose 2 choose the way i wan..y r u ppl helpin me 2 do it..i dun wan..giv it bac..giv it bac 2 me..i beg u...giv it bac...