the time pass by very fast..

the time pass by very fast lately..another 2 more weeks will b her b'day..i dun even dare 2 think bout it..dunno y..after the past few days..i was so scare of my memories..somtims i jus try 2 turn on my music til max when im listenin 2 music thro earphones so tat my mind will onli filled wif the songs..it'll never b free 2 think bout anythin..but the sad part is..mayb coz of tat..lately i found out tat i get very dizzy easily n my ears start 2 hurt..haizz...but i seriously very very sufferin over here..everytim i think of his b'day is near..n same goes 2 hers..how r they gonna celebrate it..think bout tis year her b'day she'll celebrate wif him..not me anymor..arhh~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!nw onli i noe..one of the world most biggest lie is..''the feelin will turn down n gone while the time pass..''BULL SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!it never go away...seriously..day by day..i found out tat even nw..the love of mine 2 her still growin non stop...i love her even more every single day past..i couldnt stop tat from happenin..n i dunno how..i tried 2 smiled..but when im alone..the fake smile will jus eventually gone by itself..god~save me..i dun dare 2 end my own life..if i hv 2 choice 2 choose..plz..end it nw..take away my soul n end my life~