randomness~

2day baby go 4 the airasia interview...well,the whole night i couldn't really slp..coz i was so worried bout her..(yea yea..u guys will b thinkin tat im so damn stupid n idiot..so if u wan 2 write bout it in comments..save it..i noe...)early in the morning..i woke up n quickly called her 2 see whether she oreadi wake up anot..coz yesterday night she had a late night slp..when i called..she oreadi woke up n well prepared...but..i guess tat time she was..nvm..after tat..i din called her..i went 2 work..but in my heart..i was sufferin..coz i really hope she could pass..n she'll get panic very easily..after work..i quickly called her 2 noe bout the result..when she told me..''i passed''..i was like..thank god~lucky u passed...but..we din really hv a long conversation..tat time i wasn't really hvin a good mood..dun ask me y..i wont tell..the feelin of confuse came bac again..n again..i really dunno wat 2 do..wat i can do nw is onli watchin her from far away..when she's hurt..i cant really gav her comfort..coz i wasnt allowed 2 do so..i felt very useless..whenever she told me bout those stuff..she dun really noe tat actually my heart was bleedin..better than onli ''pain''...i noe..b4 tis..i made alot of mistakes..but..haizz..nvm..no1 wil really blive tat one who used 2 b a prisoner will change..jus hope tat God could hv given me another chance...there's oways sadness n happiness in life..wat i noe is..im sufferin btween both..i learnt somthin new..human..was born coz of themself...not coz of the world...but..ppl around us..how they view us..it is improtant..but wat we could do bout it is..we change the view of them from bad 2 good..not waited 4 them 2 change themself..how long it takes..no1 noes..but as long as u tried..som1 will realise it..som1 like u..whos readin tis..will noe it..tats y we called it as ''LIFE''...