I've learnt something..
If you can't forget..learn to forgive..
I've read your blog..
yes..i was touched.
But for the first time..i don't feel any hatred nor guilt..
What u had done the other night..the words..
It's over..
Now..its a begining.
Learn to forgive..you will feel better..
^^
We had loved each other before..
I am still grateful of it.
You had taught me loads of things..
I truely appreciate it.
But...
as i had said,
Life goes on...
so finally u replied my blog...u said u were touched..but i dun feel any hatred nor guilt...its not tat u learn 2 4giv..its u noe u'll b 4given..from my previous posts..every single 1 is meant 2 u..my words were harsh somtims..n u noe unless i turn into a super genius..so tat i'll use those very beautiful n polite words..but tats the onli thing i dun alike as edward...no vocab...even in chinese..i'll still use som wrong words during the time 2 express myself...yesterday night..after finishin work..while waitin 4 som1 2 pick me up..i walk cross ur house..few times...listenin 2 music n sing..try 2 sing loud but not til caused som disturbance 2 the neighbours..hopin 4 u 2 hear it coz u din close ur windows...bt guess u din..mayb u were on the phone..in the opposite..ur dad heard it..he looked out from the toilet window n he saw me..i dunno whether he recognize me..bt i noe tat time i hv 2 go...it dissapointed me a little coz it doesn't work out like the plan...the next day was ur next interview..i was so nervous n wantin 2 wish u good luck..bt i dun dare 2 call u coz knowin u'll b on the phone n after tat u hv 2 slp early..dun dare 2 text u coz i noe every single time u got my text..u'll start 2 recall bac everythin n instead of tryin hard 2 think of a way 2 ans the interviewers question..u'll b tryin hard 2 find a way 2 4get bout me...after ur interview..when i ask bout the result..u told me tat u dun really care bout it coz of the salary was bit 2 low..but the voice of doubt appear again which makes me think of is it really coz of tat or is it tat i din wish u..u scared tat i giv up or somthin..tats y u dun really hv a mood in it..or really coz of the salary..bt u scare tat u cant really find som big money in few years time n u hv 2 work extra long which break ur promise 2 me...lately u hv been workin so so hard..from ur mouth..u wanna get into the job is coz of the salary..but wat u need the salary 4...u noe u wont let urself b over work coz of money..n same goes 2 me..i noe it 2...the onli reason is u wont wan 2 giv any chances 2 me or u..2 hv time 2 think of me n us...every single motivation n reason of urs in doin somthin had been look thro by me..nw ur fatratin not coz of my appearance really disturb u..but i finally noe it n u hv 2 think of a way 2 blind folded my eyes again..which u noe its gettin harder n harder these few days coz..as the time goes on n everytim i was able 2 look thro it..u noe my mind grow alot bout u...u hv no choice bt 2 use bac the same old reason..he's my bf..i dun love u anymor..jus let me go plz...life goes on..the onli words u gav me...yes..but u 4got 2 type in some words..life goes on but plz dun let me go n hold me tighter than b4 so tat i noe i hv no other way 2 continue escapin but 2 come bac 2 u..tats the onli reason i wan if i nid 2 continue...i successfully solve every single puzzle u gav...n nw onli i noe..i din..turn into a devil..instead..i've grown alot more so tat i hv no doubt my givin up my wings as an angel n come 2 the earth 2 protect u,my loved ones...even tho i noe theres no way bac again...tho its like tat..i oso learnt no matter wat..i cant giv up of my future coz tats oso 1 of the reason 2 keep u feelin secured wif me next time..by not foloin me beggin around wif ppl 2 get some money or oways argue bout omney coz of financial problems...nw onli i realise y u oways told me..instead of oways worryin bout our future..y dun i jus think of nw somtims...n i got into ur position of u sayin...livin happily nw its the onli way 2 keep the future in ur mind...yup...i understand it..the onli thing i left is u comin bac 2 feel n see how much i understand..not change..how much i can stand n view things from ur sight...not oways bein selfish n thinki of every thing is 4 ur own good..n learnin tat the onli way 2 keep our love life last longer its not by preventin neither ur past or mine 2 b happenin again..but 2 love u mor n care 4 u more..tats wat its important...i hope i did past ue test tis time..b4 u comin out wif somthin mor difficult..when u read tis blog again..plz..secretly take my phone next time n try 2 send every single voice record in my phone without me noticin...listen 2 it...n i guess..tat will b my answer 4 ur test in the future...je taime...
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