wishes~

yup..i jus finish watchin a japanese drama..tis drama was all around me during these whole period..the characters inside..they encourage me..2 do things i dun dare 2 do..2 say things i dun dare 2 say..they taught me alot of stuff..which i will never 4get..the courage..patients..love..faith...all of it..it was it..which i really hope i could hv share wif u..there r alot of words..which i dunno how 2use the right terms 2 let u noe..but i really hope u could watch tis drama..even tho i noe u dun like japanese drama..but..thro tat story..i reprsent wat i wanna tell u..wat i wanna let u noe..b4 tis..i dun really noe how 2 appretiate u..4 wat i noe is..nvm,u'r bside me anyway..wat i wanna tell u..i'll let u noe later..or eventually u'll noe..when it comes 2 tat day..which u decided 2 leave..i felt so regret..so regret tat i oways push things bhind..oways think tat there'll b another day..tats y..theres alot of words n sentences which i wanna tell u..but i couldnt get the chance 2..til tat..i keep on msg u..call u..talk 2 u..tell u tat i've changed..im no longer my old self..but i never really think tat..coz of tat..u were confuse again..u were scared..whether tis time am i tellin the truth..whether if u choose me again..will i give u the happiness u wan...which u oways desire of..everytim lookin at u..heard from u tat the way he treat u..how n wat he did..n after tat u told me its ok..nvm..n u'll still hv tat smile on ur face..everytim..my heart bleed non-stop..i hate myself tat i cant stop it..i hate myself y cant i jus convince u tat i'll give u the happiness u wan..i hate myself y cant i jus realise things earlier..everytim..wat i can do is onli hate myself..but wat i din really realise is..how much u need me..not wan me 2 critic wat he hv done..but wan me 2 jus tell u..its ok..i'm oways here 2 listen 2 u..even tho i noe its the hardest thing on earth..wantin me..2 sit there..n put on a very charmin smile..listen 2 ur every single words..jus like b4..n after tat..give u courage..n energy 2 move on..i noe..i cant act like b4..coz..b4 tat..i onli can watch u from far away..u'r jus like unreachable..but u'r my goddness..start from the day i 1st met u..u oreadi penetrate deep inside my heart..no matter how hard i tried 2 told u b4..u jus dun blive..coz u wasnt my 1st love..but..yes..even tho u'r not..but u'r the 1st n the onli 1..who i tried my best 2 learn every single stuff..so tat i could hv understand u more..u might tell me..i'll do tat 2 another girl in the future...but u never noe..how touch i am..whenever im sad n down..u'r the 1..the onli 1 who will jus stand bside me quietly..even tho im mad at tat time n might scold u..but u'll still keep quiet...coz u noe..i nid u..coz of everytim..no matter wat..i hv u around..tats y i never really learn how 2 appretiate u..coz i noe everytim u'll b around..tats y i dunno how 2 express myself..but i wan 2 tell u..no matter wat..no matter wat kind of girl will appear in front of my eyes the next time..even tho we might ben thro another experience..but..the time when i hv wif u..is irreplaceable...the time we cry..laugh..happy..sad..nervous..excited..1st experience of ice skatin..1st time stand infront of the crowd 2 sing 4 u..1st time tryin my very best jus 2 cycle n fetch u bac n fron 2 work..1st time pump up my courage n kneel down in front of the crowd jus 2 ask u 2 b my gf..1st time learn the real way 2 say i love u..where i really do..1st time 2 b so sure tat..coz of u around..im immortal..1st time..coz of u..i tried my very best..2 giv u the most special b'day..even tho im so poor tat i hv 2 hv empty stomach 4 a few days after tat..1st time i felt so special on my b'day coz of u..1st time i cried coz of presents..1st time..coz of u..i din slp well jus 2 stay awake n write 8070 ''i love u''..1st time i felt tat im jus around the corner of death..1st time i step in front 2 confron my fear jus 2 make u the most special girl..1st time..i hv my b'day..celebratin wif u..n the onli time..i think of buyin u a diamond ring..jus 2 see the beauty of u..hvin the love i hv 2 u..there's alot alot more..which i hv wif u..i noe..the past i din do it well..but i really love u..coz of love..i willin 2 try again..coz of lovin u..i willin 2 keep on tryin even tho i face alot of failure..coz of love..coz of love..it melt my heart down til the very zero..so tat i can n i noe how 2 look at the world from the other view..no matter wat sort of problems..parents..frens..teachers..ppl around us..i will still willin 2 stand til the very end..lookin at u..b wif u..stand up 4 u..n love u..thankyou 4 teachin me so many stuff..thank you..4 lovin me..n thank you..4 lettin me 2 noe the world..i love u..the feelin will never goes away..but thankyou..4 appearin 2 b 1 of the most importan person in my life..thank yo..4 teachim me the way...2 love u..