avoid..?or is it prevention...????

2day afternoon..suddenly i got a sms...well..lately the main use of my hp its jus 4 me 2 listen songs..coz of tat incident happen..it has been quite quiet laltely...but everynight..i'll make sure i off my silent...so tat if she wanna find me..im still reachable...i really hope it'll ring every night like b4...but..well..nvm..then when i read the msg..it was from her..she ask me whether do i hv my hp speakers wif me..tat time onli i realise she doesnt noe im at home..coz..lately we dun really tell each other bout our life anymor...i really hope it could continue like b4..but..haizz..nvm..then i say no...n he jus reply nth la..i was like..o.O..hah?like tat onli?i dowan the conversation jus stop like tis..then i keep ask her y til she say she's hvin a party 2night..the 1st thing in my mind was..a party?her b'day party??!!!my god...if it is her b'day party..how can i miss it..how can i...i quickly ask her whos party is tat?wat party..?n end up..when she told me it was her counsin sean's b'day..i was relief...then i told her if she wan..i can take it 4 her..bt the onli thing is she hv 2 come n take lo...i cant go there..bt she jus say no..n bye..i was again..sad..i mean..y such a hurry??everytim..my god~~!!!!!wat r u escapin of?me?am i tat scary..yes,i noe i hvt cut my hair..its bit ugly..bt its not til tat scary til u dun dare 2 talk 2 me right?or wat..?u try not 2 talk 2 much 2 me coz u scare u'll wat..love me or wat..??!!!yorr..u kep escape 4 wat..y so sufferin...y cant jus talk..we used 2 b the most lovely couple..n nw coz of som reason..u ke avoid me??if its not coz of me..u wan me 2 study bac..we wont even like tis right??!!!yiesh!!!