madness~~!!!destiny~!!!

why~why why why why why~why my life its like tis..y it turn even worst than b4..y am i suffering such huge pain..why~im seriously in love wif u...its draggin me crazy..why no matter how hard i try u jus kep push me away..why..i really love u..i really do...why~!!!!!u'r goin away from town..i noe i cant ask u 2 stay..all i wan is jus ur heart..why..why god jus give me such big hope..keep me imagine tat my luck has change but instead of tat..He set a big deep hole in front of me n let me fall in it again..why..why is it more painful than b4..i hate my life..i hate why everytim im slower than time..i hate myself..i hate myself why i cant jus hold u tight..no mood..no direction at all..no nth...darkness fall..but no light's on...no hopes given..n no path are shown....i jus hope tat i'll jus lay on the bed n slp 4ever..at least like tis..i'll never wake up from my beauty dream..at least in my dream..both of us r still 2gether..both of us r still happily 2gether til 4ever...if somthin happens to me..i guess i've lost my will 2 survive or i choose 2 slp 4 a long long period even tho i might still alive~