i jus hang up the phone...i dunno wat to say..am i stupid or...guess i am...for loving u so so deep like tis..do u noe how much courage i took up jus to press the button to call..do u even noe how much bravery i have to use jus to ignore watever ur response is when u pick up the phone..but guess..my courage jus not much enough to take the reaction of urs when u pick up the phone..am i really tat wrong in time to call u or am i really ntg at all..yea..i am ntg nw...worthless to u..its been so so long i heard from u..today in mind my i was thinkin..mayb in the past im the 1 who oways waitin..mayb i should b more agreesive..but..hmm..mayb watever i did is jus wrong wrong wrong..mayb im jus meant to do ntg..no matter wat i do..its jus useless..no one will look at it...i missed u so so much..i tot u'll b happy at least when u hear my voice..but guess its jus all my imaginary...ntg was real at all..cry in the night..lookin for u..but u've far gone...left the onli me in the world..lookin up in the dark black sky..prayin for the star n moon to at least brightn=en the sky so tat i wont b so lonely..but the clouds have cover it all up..ntg's left for me...no matter how hard i pray for it..no matter how much effort i put in it..its jus all ntg...i love u for so long n hard..i try so so best to do everythin but guess...no matter wat i do n how hard i try...god jus wont even peep on it...mayb ppl hates me..mayb no one likes me..mayb..im the onli child who was been dump by the god...life sucks...life's nothing but an empty shell...full of fakes..lies...evils..darkness...i hate my life..i love u...but...nothing all but empty...