yoyoyo~~~haizz..yo wat la,idiot...pretend to b cool again..watever...im jus a idiotic jerk~~~haizz..sien a...sien a...oways wonder wat kind of life will i get in the future..hmm..rich 1..??or poor..but no matter wat..it'll jus b so bored without u~yea..single life may has its own benefits..but when u'r alone for somtims..u'll noe tat love from family n frens jus arent enuf to fill up the emptiness of ur heart...i try to laugh,i try to smile...i try everythin i could jus to make myself look happy in front of every1..but when im alone..the laughter,smile,happiness..all gone..gone for good..im alone..lonely..n cold...im jus pretendin..a disguiser i guess..a very good 1..hmm..theres a time where i can read ur mind n balance it up wif my actions n emotions..but slowly..the love of mine torwards u suddenly grow too strong til its out of my control...i lost control of everythin..i started to act like a wild beast...totally out of control..tats y it scares u away...far far away from me...i try my best to pull u bac..end up..i screwed up everythin of coz...after so long..i slowly started to learn to control again..learn to balance every single emotions i have so tat i wont repeat the same mistakes as i did...nw..even if theres som sort of ''emergency''..i'll still able to maintain it calmly...n slowly..my eyes opens..n finally it allows me to see the world...still hangin around for u..hopin to be recovered...i missed u so much...where the moon starts to fall its beautiful white light down to the earth...where the sun shines up its gorgeous warm lights..whenever the wind starts to blow,n deliver its calmin n cheerful feelings..whenever every single breath u take even til the day ur soul is been sent bac to God..every single time my heart beats..it reminds me tat today...my love for u is gettin stronger...i love u...