hmm...omost 1 month lo...haizz..pbt still the same.no matter wat kind of ways i try..still the same..she still dun reply me msg..dun call n stuff..sometims it makes me wonder..wat am i to her~~is she playin a fool wif me..or she is really tat busy..??bt..its the 1st 3 months for us,y feel like ntg de??once ppl say,if u got a cigarette on ur hand,a girl n a life with u,tats heaven..well,i got a cigaratte,in fact..i smoke alot..bt a nice life..??nah..i work damn hard for it..girl~~yea,i got 2..1 in japan..1 over here..japan..if she really is serious,still too far~~no use..over here tis 1..yea..so damn near to me..bt so wat..??jus feel like strangers btwn us..haizz..still livin in hell then...god..wat happen oh..y like tis de??i seriously tryin so hard for everythin nw..i really wan everythin around me work it out..bt y im seein like i screwed everythin?!!!arghh..i jus so pissed of myself..y cant i get a better life..i oways wander wat kind of life i had in my past life..izzit coz i did too many wrong thing..in tis life..i feel like im jus keep on payin bac to every1..jus like i owe them alot~!!!haizz...sien a..so damn bored of my life..who can save me from tis hell~~~plz~~~~~