~twilight~

at 1st..i tot finally...life start to steady down..but things doesnt seems like it..exam's coming..i got a new job as a tuition teacher again..one form 3 student n one form 5 student..both r taking exam tis year..stressed...plus my own exam..headache...lately my life stlye change alot..not to say into bad or wat..i mean..yea..i got a new hair cut which was bit wild to me..well,tats wat all people around me says..obviously,no one likes my new hair style..my dad was so angry when he saw it..friedns around me says tat it doesnt suit me..technically..its a no..n i bet too..when u saw it..u'll say no as well..but...hmm..jus tot of changin somthin..life isnt as smooth as i tot..i hv been thro a long period of thought...i oways wanted the person tat i love n care to be happy oways..but end up..im the one who oways make them sad n heartbreak..i oways tot watever i do is all for their best considered...but tats wat all i tot..start from the early i noe i was bit controlled..but actually its jus not bit..its alot..imagination is jus not enuf 4 me to live on..tats y i oways hurt people tat i love the most..especially u...i had missed the path of turning bac..when people around me asked bout u..my heart will still break even things happened quit long ago..when i heard bout u..it feels the same as well..i dun dare to face the past as i dun dare to look at u anymore..i love u so much but it doesnt seem tat i got the chance to continue loving u..u said tat i hv to live on wif my life..wat all i can do its jus stay on low n quite..so tat i wont disturb u anymore..im so sorry tat i dissapoited u again as i break my promise to u..but tat will be the lst promise tat i'll break as i will keep the others til eternity..my life..well..thinkin of mixing around wif my class but seems tat everyone its keep somthin away from me which i doesnt know wat is it..i felt tat there's an invisible wall between us tat i will never break thro..started to hate the stupid me..i oways messed things up..tis coming saturday..my house will b having a party..i tot of inviting u over if..we still together..but nw..i jus hope tat u'r happy n safe..i love u..