hmm...yesterday i had a dream again..but tis time i had a dream on a fren of my..a fren which i've not been seein her for a long long time..she's a girl who stay at canadan come bac to malaysia due to her dad's transfer to here coz of works..so..she stay wif us omost for 1 year when im in primary 5...she's cute..i mean..yea..tat time i admitted tat i had a crush on her..n we din really get to talk much coz..i was a corward tat time n..shy..yea..u guys might be thinkin tat im a pussy but...haha..i might look like brave from the outside but when it comes to girls..shy shy la~~~XP..anyway...tat dream suddenly reminds me of her..n damn i missed her so much nw..dunno hows she doin in canada..i search for the whole fb list for her name but i couldn't find anythin boout her..haizz..hope my frens can help me out on tis..i really hope tat god will bless me on tis n at least let me contact wif her bac..sabrina..where r u n how r u nw...




haizz..nw its oreadi 1:22 in the midnight..the weather is rather cold..n tonight..im alone in my room coz my bro has gone out for a trip wif his frens~..hmm..well..im suppose to went out n yamcha wif my frens coz 2day is my best fren's b'day but unfortunately he's not free..busy of his assignment n stuff..blablabla..watever..i dunno y lately my temper is so so weird..alot of things tat is totally out of my control...somtime i can withstand somthin which is so so so annoyin without angry..but somtims..i jus cant stand it but to brust out~well,my tis best fren got ''attack'' from me alot of times..i means..i dunno y..mayb..mayb..tis isnt me anymor..yea..i oways wonders..wat kind of life should i hv n stuff..but..in the end..i noe tat tis is my life..a loser 1..?or jus b normal..ha..u asked me..haizz..hvin a life like me is so so borin..well,let me tell u guys a secret.i can read thro ppl's mind..haha..dun blive right..yea..who will..tis world..onli 1..no..i dun think any1 blives it..but in the fact..ppl jus ignore it coz every1's scare to let ppl noe their real identity..ppl lives by pretendin to b somthin or som1 nowadays..no1's real..no 1..well..even im the same..i pretned to live tough..stay happy n try my best to make myself even more handsom n cool..well,i kinda did it~~XP..but wat i mean is..im jus tryin..in another word..im pretendin...theres nth's real inside me nw..ntg..totally ntg..emptiness oreadi eaten me up..love for u,ruey ying..i dunno..i guess i oreadi locked it up in my memories..the way u treated me..i've to thank you coz u'r the 1 who let me view on the true side of humanity..when ppl nids u..they love u..they admire u..they promise their life for u~~but when they had enuf n u'r ntg but a junk to them..they hates u,they kill u..dumped u..ignore u..or wat so ever..tats the true side of it...disgustin..??nah..but more to beauty..the most ''beautiful'' side of u...am i a corward nw..??wat i can say is..i dun trust any1 nw...coz i only trust wat i read from ur mind..which u cannot hide anythin from me of it..i knew everythin..finally...for tat specialty..it'll put me in the result of livin in the lonely world..but im happy wif it..at least..at least im blessed to stay out of tis ugly dusk...in tis world..every1 helds a position..for me..im the 1 who repairs..repairs ur heart..ur soul..ur life..n stuff..but after im done wif the job..ppl will us kik their ass off me n say goodbye..no1 appreciate wat i did..ppl r jus usin me as their replacement on som loss..after they found it bac..im ntg no more..tats wat i am..tats wat u make me..u...