haizz..im holdin myself so hard for not to find u..do u even noe how hard it feels like..??how sufferin it feels like for not knowin any news bout the 1 u love so much..??do u noe how worried i got when i noe tat u'r sick..but all of these..??wat i can do is jus wait..pray tat u'll b alright..pray tat u'll b happy..pray tat u'll b safe...ITS SO SUFFERING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!argghh~~~!!!ying~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I NOE I CANT TOOK BAC MY WORDS BUT I REALLY DIN MEAN IT TAT NIGHT LA!!!!!!!!!!arrggghh~!!!!!!im not blamin u but..really..i still tryin so so hard to hold myself..i scare i cant hold it much longer oreadi...really..my body is gettin weaker n weaker for me to hold up so many things...argghh..i really dunno how n wat ways i should use to let u noe how i feel la...im cryin for help le..yorr~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!onli u can make me so..so..yiesh!!!!argghh~im goin crazy la...ying~~~plz~~T.T