thailand..??lonely~

well..2moro im goin to thailnad..finally~but..dunno y..i tot i'll b excited..who noes..nw the feeling tat im hvin..i dun feel like goin anywhere...well..2day i went to mv to catch a movie ''avatar'' wif my frens b4 i go to thailand...after the movie,guess who i run into..her parents n a lady..(p.s i dunno who is she but dunno y my feelings like tellin me its her mum or somthin...dunno..XS..)of coz i say hi to her mum..n dad as well of coz..im not tat bad..in fact..i love her parent even tho her dad's bit serious lookin...when i say hi to her dad..he doesnt seem to hv any reaction n i tot mayb its jus me bein sensitive..after i passed by them..1 of my fren told me tat he over heard her dad ask who is tat guy..well..when i heard bout it..i felt so dissapointed..i mean..yea,i noe tat even when im wif her,her dad jus doesnt seem to recognize me either but..dunno y i jus hv 1 feelin..am i really tat easy to bein 4gotten..mayb tats y she 4got bout our love as well..mayb i am really tat easy to be 4gotten...hmm..im gonna spend the end of tis year in thailnad..remember every year when its the time to step into a whole new year..we'll call each other n wish each other..yea..even tho in the end..it'll b a little fight goin on..but i still miss n hope tat time will come again..at least..at least i noe tat she loves me..2moro im goin to thailand..but..i really hope she'll miss me like the time when i went to redang island..tat was more fun n memorable compare wif tis nw..nw all i feel was lonely..its ntg fun at all...i miss the time she cares bout me..i miss the time she missed me..i miss the time when she told me she was worried bout me when the's a small earthquake happens...i..i really miss her to b bsides me...honestly..i miss u,baby...

dream and reality..

jus woke up...man,i had som bad dreams yesterday night..i mean not like those creepy bad dreams..but bad dream as in..its kinda hurt...i dreamt bout u..in the dream,we go bac to the scl time where we get to sit 2gether..play 2gether n hv funs...in the dream,i got kisses from u...even tho its jus on my face..but the feeling was so..so real..so real til it reminds me tat u've oreadi left..all i got was jus dream...i dunno y...but i still love u so so much...i jus cant held it...y...y do u left..y cant u stay..y all i hv is jus dream..not reality..i jus hope to hug u..touch ur face...hold ur hand...love u...but all i can get is jus in my dream...ntg but dreams...i cant hear ur laughter..no love...no ntg but a lonely freak...

merry christmas~!!!!

well,jus come bac from the christmas party at a church...tis party really get me high up..i mean..its so so so different..ppl in there r like so friendly..no matter who u r..as long as they meet u,they'll jus say hi n talk to u..my god..they dance..sing..act..yea..they hv some drama goin on..but 1 thing i dun really like is..they keep saying tat how good is jesus n keep ask us to blive..well,i din say tat i dun blive..jus tat..i enjoy the party part more..^^..well,its quite fun actually..hmm..after X'mas,the time where im goin to thailand is gettin nearer...cant wait til tat time..so fun~~~^^merry christmas every1~~n a happy new year!!!!wowowowow~~~~

boring~~~so damn boring...dunno wats the purpose of writing anymor...no1 come in n visit...no more laughter..no ntg...haizz...still dunno y things will happen til like tis...god..cant u jus give me a little bit of sign??haizz...i still miss u so much...but..where r u nw...

lets get MARRIED~~~~

well,jus come bac from mamak stall wif my bloved best frens...well,wat i can say is..tis week..really is a quite surprising week...saw titty...nearly been robe again..n nw..here comes a really big 1...1 of my best fren is goin to get married on next year january 28th...haha..well,u guys can guess..but he's jus 1 year older than me...haizz...nvm..at least tis is the 1st time fren around me gettin married..bit excited tho...coz im gonna b the baby's god father...yea..''god father''...the word..u guys can oreadi guess wat happen...well..ntg much to say bout it..jus hope they can really b 2gether 4ever..at least jus 4 the kid sick..^^hmm..when i heard bout the news..it reminds me of us...we used to sign n engaged...yea...n we promised to get married when we r 28...remember..?i promise to wash all dishes,cook,n wash the toilet..n u...wash the clothes which u dun hv to coz there's somthin call washing machine,n mop the floor..hmm..funny ha...hmm...nvm...let me jus enjoy tis weddin of his..at least i think it'll b able to replace som of my wishes of gettin married wif u when i see both of them happily 2gether ever after...

finally..HOLIDAY~~!!!!

Finally,scl holidays started..n finally i pass up my econ assignment..lucky the lecturer din band my assignment..it was like 3k somthin words which he only wan 2k..hu..n finally i got my passport done..well..there was somthin happened tat day..it was 7 o'clock in the morning when me,my dad,sis n grandma reach there..we hv to renew my grandma's passort so tat she can cont stay in singpapore wif my uncle whereby me n sis hv to renew oso soz we r goin to thailand to countdown tis year~yay yay!!so happy..its time go out of land bsides than singapore..so excited..well,tats not the point..u noe wat i saw tat day..there was a piar of women,(i think..coz they look like a gua..)nvm..n u noe wat..one of them..din wear bra..jus wear a T-shirt...i mean..well..its ok la..if there's nth happen..coz nw my mind is quite open...(as if..haha!!)n while i was waitin to pay my bills,she was sitting there as well..waitin 4 her turn..n nw its the excited part..her..tits...i can see..so damn fuckin clear~!!!!!i mean..she mus b get excited or wat..it was like..my fucking god!!!!wat the fuck..come on...there was like so damn fucking many ppl...n u'r little titty is like so fucking obvious!!!do u mind..???there r kids around man..come on....n somemor its malay..yea right..suci kononnya...==....my god...if she's a pretty girl..then..acceptable..no..she is...not to say very very very ugly..but still..minus 2 very...haizz...nvm...n yesterday...i nearly got my hp being steal again...it was after scl..while i was waitin 4 the bus..when it came..i jus walk slowly to the station..it stop jus right in front of me..lucky~!!but when i look around..my god ppl r rushin..runnin at my position...nvm..its ok if im not the 1st to got up in the bus..b4 the bus open the door,an aunty suddenly turn bhind n point at me..i was like o.O..wat...wats wrong..but suddenly my feelings told me somthin happen..yea..i felt somthin move in my pocket..quickly i put my hand n press on my hp...tat time my hand was holdin my metal bottel as well...n when i turn around..i saw a malay guy...well dressed up..ha..yea..malay AGAIN!!!!SUCINYA~~~~!!!!tat time i was so fucking pissed n i wan to hit him wif my fist plus metal bottel(if he gets it..he'll cry man..i've been trainin n working out alot lately..)but when i wanna lift up my hand..guess wat..the bus door open..n those fuckin aunty start to push push push push.i mean..wat the fuck...the bus wont run away right...damn it...n tat guy run away..==..yiesh..haizz..tot i could hit som1 yesterday..but nvm..at least i still got my hp...tis is the last thing i had which common wif u...hmm..if i lost it..seriously..i lost everythin of our memories...i missed u so so much baby...tats y...start from nw on..my hp will b so so so precious...no1 can come near it..if not...prepare to taste my fist...hahaha!!!!nw gettin ready to go thailand..yay yay..thailand..here i come~!!!!

hmm...lookin at my life nw..i dunno wat word should i use to discribe bout it..miserable..??pathetic?ha..frens around are partnerin up...X'mas comin..still remember the promise we made to each other in tis year's X'mas?i bet u oreadi 4got bout it..after all..tis year's Xmas u'r either gonna celebrate wif him or u'r on duty..we suppose to b flyin together as promise..but sorry i cant do it..we use to promise each other tat we'll stay together til long...but sorry again coz i hvv to leave nw..im so sorry tat every these things happen..im so sorry tat i cant really do wat i promised u all along...im so so sorry..but there's one thing i'll oways put in my heart..n i guess this is the onli thing i'll do it as i promise..i love u,ruey ying til forever n eternity...looking at the star on the dark black sky..i'll oways remember the way u use to love me b4...the story bout us...the love between us...

it has been quite some time ever since i updated my blog...well..guess my life din turn out to be better..hmm..tis month im not gonna work as a tuition teacher yet coz all my classes will onli b startin on january..even tho tis may give me som freetim to rest but...hmm..seems like the free time tat i have jus gav me the feelin of emptiness...i cant control my mind of stop thinking of u..i still love u so much...every single song i hear..every single stuff i do..y...y my hands still shiverrin when i think bac tat u could jus hold my hand nw...everytim i hav to jus close my eyes...cover my face n cry to stop...sad..lonely its not the most frightenin things to me..but the thing i scared the most is u left..wat is love..listen,obligate,valued n excuse...but it seems tat these 4 words turn bac round btween us..both of us din hv a chance to listen to each other..obligate...but looks like stuff tat we did for each others cant b seen by us..we learn to valued each other..but the valued seems to b over tat it makes us suffer...we hv a lot of excuse to love each other...but the onli single excuse for us to leave seems to win all the excuses of love...i hate tat our love hav bcome a memories to us...i hate tat i cant b able to love u anymor...i use to feel so wonderful coz every single timei look at ur eyes..i felt so blessed coz i see the love light in ur eyes n the wonder of it all is tat u jus dun realise how much i love u...i oways wish to hug u so so tight...i oways hope to spend every single precious moment wif u...there no word for me to tell how much i love u...not even eternity can b represent...