2day i went out wif nat..hmm..i dunno..mayb its a great day i guess..coz..finally..i get to noe somthin..somthin tat has been confusin me all around...n the ansswer tat i was findin all along..well..gettin to noe the answer was bit sufferin..bt at least..in the end..i was relieve...finally...2day coz both of us got ntg to do..so we decided to go out n hv lunch at pizza hut wif her mum 1st..well,i was payin for tat..then we went to midvally..she said she wanted to buy som books n somthin for him..so we kinda hang around..n after she bought wat she wanted..my stomach was starving so we went to sushi king..tats the time i finally got the answer..at 1st..we was chattin bout somthin..then finally i braved up myself n ask..n thro tat question..she said..when both of us been together..she din even try to 4get bout him..she never wanted to..n tat time..i noe..she found the 1 she wan..b4 tis..i tot i was the special 1 for her..bt end up..im jus a replacement tool tat helps her to jus temporary 4get bout him..well..in the end i doesnt really work tat well n yeap they got 2gether..hmm..at 1st.i suffer 4 awhile..i admit..i was kinda shock n sad plus heart broken at tat very moment..bt it jus lasted 4 awhile..guess i should oreadi guess it out when we both get 2gether..its jus tat im jus tryin my best to cheat myself tat she oreadi 4got bout him n she love me..jus me..hmm..tis secret..tis pain..it has been sufferin me so so much..finally..i could let it go...finally...n at tis very same day..finally jasmine gav up on me as well..well..another pain ended..hmm..bt still..i hv to say sorry to all of u who i hurt b4..im so so so deeply sorry bout it..especially u,ying..the girl i love so much wif my heart..i hurt u in many ways b4..im so sorry..i let ur tears drop..i sorry i let u bleed..im sorry tat i cant do it right when helpin u to recover form the pain..but im glad ta nw u finally got wat u wanted...n u jasmine..im sorry coz i hurt u..we shouldnt even started a relationship..it was totally a mistake..i admit it was all my fault so..sorry...bt dun worry..the memories of me in ur mind will jus last for awhile..slowly i'll not exist in ur mind anymor...its the destiny tat both of us cant b 2gether no matter how hard we try girl..trust me..i cant n i wont plus i dun love u...im sorry to say tat..lovin me will jus get u wounded everywhere in the end...let it go while u still can n tats the best choice...well..good thing is every single question,confusions,problems n answers i got it 2day..the bad thing is..u noe when som1 is so so tired numb 4 so long..guess when they lost the reason of tat..the same time..it might b a good news to me..bt i lost the faith tat i oways hv in me as well..guess..im not tat special to any1..im jus me..the tiny little me..