不知道为什么。。过了那么久。。学习了那么多的东西和道理。。可是。。不管生活过的有多匆忙。。感觉上还是很消沉。。心灵的空虚。。还是找不到拟补的方法。。最近的生活。。虽然多了和家人的互动。。但是缺少了真正的快乐。。。到处去游荡。。希望的就是能有机会能碰到你。。努力的生活。。想要的。。就是你看到我的努力而回到我身边。。但是。。原本以为生活不断的变好。。到头来。。所有的梦想。。也只是空想。。所有的希望。。也只是一场空。。。空虚的心灵。。由谁能理解。。又有谁能去拟补。。。在这无边无界的庞大宇宙里。。我这小小的尘埃。。又算得了什么。。

26 May 2008

Honey..

Today,I didn’t follow my dad to work..around 2 something in the afternoon..my dad called back to say at Pahang,Bukit Tinggi there got earthquake..i worry like hell ah..that time only I find my phone. It was then when I saw your messages..luckily you left the place jor…so scared you still there diving or something…sigh…you’re so far away from me now…so weird feeling…

Sigh…today so bu shuang ah…play scrabble,loose. Study,brother kacau. Watch tv,cry like hell. Now,write a ‘so called letter’ to you,kena my father ngam… lucky la you…dun have to listen to me complain now…and can have fun there…

Plus today got plumber come my house do the pipes…my father that day remember I told u he repair the pipe in the bathroom? He broke it.Lolz. The plumber came that time he saw and he say he will come back later around 5 pm to repair. Now, 7 pm jor lu…shadow also dun have… I NEVER see my house pipe break till like this da…metal de you know…? My fathers excuse was the pipe corrode jor…so its not his fault…*blek* He do de always not his fault de la…but whatever I do is all my fault ma…YIESH!!

Jiorr…this Saturday no tuition…only can see you on Sunday…dunno la…maybe before Sunday can let you read this letter jor…hopefully la. Then u can know how much I missed you…PLUS maybe I could go your shop to give you cake?? Maybe I can bake a cake during these days…let your family eat…well…if its succesful la…haha.

Guess what..! I’ve edited my featured friends in friendster…so only can see you,my bro,kelsey,and jie fu…kinda empty but nvm la…can see all my beloved ppl there…especially you,my fiancè…K la…I very guai da…now go eat dinner lu~…

Muaxxxx~

Your fiancè.

tis was the msg u gave me when i went to P.Redang last year..dunno y..when i plug in my pendrive jus nw..tis msg jus seems to catch my attention..yea..it has been a long long time..its oreadi bcome history..i shouldnt do anythin to recall bac..but...til nw..everythin jus seems to b so..so sudden..i still love u so so much...if u saw tis post..i would like to tell me..i missed u so much..jus like in the msg...my love never did reduce...i still love u so much..i really hope to call u nw n tell u everythin..but..i dun dare tp take the phone jus coz i dunno whether u n him r talkin on the phone or..im jus...not the 1 to u anymor...i love u...n i really do...

hmm...money money money..money comin in~!!!!

wah..lately..dunno y suddenly i felt very rich..i mean..money keep on comin in...since the day i worked in the akon's concert..til nw..i got another new student..no..not 1..but 3 new student..my god..money keep on puffin up..wow~~~im richy richy~hehehe..^^

sien...

haizz...been scold by mum again..sien a...i mean..come on..when i drive..can u jus shut up..i noe how to estimate..i noe how to drive..i can see wif my eyes ok..i hv my brain wif me..duh..i din buy my licience..i earn it..i learn..i pass the test without givin any rasuah..i pass the test god damn it..cant u jus put in som confidence in me..???i mean my bro got into alot of accident b4 oso..so..?i din right..??i mean i hvt..plus i noe when n how to drive..so can u jus shut up~!!!!!argghh!!!!

nw still keeps on recall bac tat day akon's concert..my god..so..nice~!!!!!ohya..btw..if it sound offence then im sorry at 1st..but even tho i dun really noe tat my blog got ppl read anot de..but if som1 whos readin n u noe tat little bastard..dun let him noe tat i work wif him..coz from tat day..he seems like he dun remember who i am..i nid tis job in the future..yea...it sound sucks coz i sound like i beggin him but no choice..for life..for free concert..i seriously nid tis job..wait til my bro get into tis industry which he's oreadi studyin bout it nw..til then i still nid to use him..so..wait til he's useless..yea..im so bad..lalala..but no choice..concert~free~!!!!!!!haha...little bastard..nw onli i noe u'r so useful..but too bad..u oways sound like u'r very good..but u noe wat..u dun..u sucks..ever since tat day i work wif u..i noe it..u sucks..u dun even noe how to get the job done..onli noe how to flirt wif girls..which makes me even look down at u..cock talker...but nvm..i still nid tis cock talker 4 som time..so i'll spare him 4 awhile..

hmm..sudden lucky..??

well..the post b4 was talkin bout tat my bad luck return again..n guess wat..jus tat night..b4 i slp..suddenly my hp rang n it was my student..he asked me whether i wanna do the concert thing anot coz they lackin of ppl..but the price onli Rm120..when i heard of it..i was like wan..of coz wan~!!!finally..2day early in the mornin..i wake up..clean myself n go to sunway..i mean..he told me i hv to reach at 9..but jus incase the traffic jam..so i reached there at 8..n i onli brought Rm3..my stomach was growlin so badly..i hv no choice but to walk into a mamak shop..i dare not to order some other stuff coz its very costly even if u onli eat in mamak when u'r in subang..(so called rich ppl area..)i onli order 1 roti kosong n 1 teh o ice..after finish my breakfast..i walk to the entrance of sunway surf beach..i waited for one hour...when i called..my student onli gettin ready to come out from house..i was like..deng..for wat i wake up so early~!!!!nvm..from 8am..i wait til omost 10am onli he reach..nvm...when he reach..he was inform by his fren tat it wasnt there..we hv to walk til the main entrance of sunway..then there we go...walk....n when we reach..1st thing..wat the FUCK!!!guess who i saw..tat fuckin bastard..if u guys still remember..there was one little bastard who try to steal my..well..nw is my ex..b4..yea..tats him..n..the funny part is..i hv to work under him..fucked up man..shit~nvm..here we go..a long long day..wellduring the whole time..i dun really bother bout his existence..i mean..im the kind tat if i get a job..even if i hate tat job alot..i'll still try my best to get it done..well..honestly..i seriously feel like punch him during the time when i work..bt i try not to bother bout it..its the 1st time i got into these kind of job..bit exicted..after a long day of workin..when around 4 onli we get to eat our lunch..n in order to get our lunch..we hv to walk a long along distance...walk over a hill..onli get our food..my god..every1 was so exhausted..but another thing..there onli hv rice..dun hv water..n they expect us to swallow it..our throat oreadi dry..but..no choice..we hv to..jus to fill up our stomach..after lunch...we continue working..but tat time we oreadi hv to prepare for the concert..after change into the stuff shirt..we stand in our own position..im a ticket checker for tat night..mayb its the management problem..there was alot of mistakes n trouble happen on tat night..but in the end..our job was done..i n my student quickly rush down to the concert n it was jus in time as its the peak..we stand over there n listen to few songs..then we hv to get bac up...it impress me as the bass was so nice~never tot such nice stuff could appear in malaysia..XS..well..after the concert..we hv to move everythin again..my god..so damn tirin..but there's one benifit..tat is..i dun hv to go gym..nw my muscle grow bigger again..hehe..^^v..after everythin..it was oreadi late night..i called my bro to fetch me up n go home..wat a nice day..^^1st time as a concert stuff~~~SUCCESS!!!!

bad luck return~!!!

my god...wat happen..y..y bad luck returns again~~i jus lost Rm230 tis week..wat the fuck~!!!!tis friday n saturday..i suppose to get a chance to work as a stuff for the Akon concert in sunway lagoon..but unfortunately..my student phone me on tuesday n told me tat i was been kicked out coz of error enterin my ic no..it suppose to be 91...but he entered 93..when i heard bout it..i was..wat the..RM200!!!i try to find a way to get in again bt cant..i mean..come on..93??if i am...how can i b ur tuition teacher stupid~!!!!!how can i hv such brainless student!!!!yiesh..nvm..later on..my best fren he was in..bt he oso got a job in restoran as a waiter..so he was plannin me to replace his place as a waiter..then i thought well..at least i still got Rm30...better than nth..nvm..then...today...suppose to b the day..bt b4 hy depart..he called my student to confirm where's the revenue..bt guess wat he said..his place as well was cancel..both of us was shocked n..how can it b..he said som1 called him tat time n said he was my fren n he cant go..so they cancelled him as well..i mean..wat the..cant u jus called me n confirm about it?!!!stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!nvm..then he want bac the job in restoran..so..nw....so lucky to say tat i hv lost the job as a concert stuff n...waiter..Rm230....fly away...in front of me...jus...gone...VANISHED!!!!!!!!!!!ARGGHH~！~~~！！！！！！

new sem..

i jus started my new sem tis week..my god..dunno y..tis startin dun even giv me a feelin of goin to scl..everyday onli 1 class..n the time is like 9 til 12..12 -3..my godd..feel like wastin my time attendin to class..i mean..after 2 hours..then i hv to go bac again..i take half an hour bus to scl..then after 2 hours..i hv to take half an hour bus bac again..my god..damn tirin n borin..y can they jus put som class 2gether in one day..then at least tat day is worth it..come on..nwadays bus fees is expensiv man..not like last time..Rm2 can ride the whole day..jus dun understand y they'r so damn stupid..haizz..

back...

im bac from genting highland 2day..so tired..hv't really been slpin for like 5 days..my god..gonna b crazy..well..dunno y i dun feel like coming bac..i very very miss the moment i had when in genting...alot of pictures n memories...even tho i noe tat i'll hav another chance to go there again..but dunno y..very miss it..missed the time i had over there...hmm..y time passed so fast..if i hv a chance..i wish to slow down the time...nw...very tired...slpy..my god..i look like zombie...

morning glory!!!

my god...nw its like 5 somthing alomost 6 in the morning..n im still in oldtown cafe on9..haha..my god..even tho 2day dun hv any mist..but the temperature is still damn low...freaking cold..nw its like omost 5'c onli..cold~well..took alot of pics of genting's night view..its so pretty over here..haizz..but too bad i cant really walk nw coz of my stupid legs..it seems tat its too old to stand the low temperature over here n its aching alot..help me~~~~

genting~!!!!!

yes..im at genting nw..my god..finally...get to come to genting wif my frens..i mean we have been planing 4 tis trip like..5 years?!!!finally..n my god..the air over here is like so fresh~but damn cold up here..seriously freaking cold...well..alot of fun up here..i hv been ridin the roler cooster 4 so many times..i never get to ride tat b4 even tho i came to genting a few times..bt nw..finally..haha..i ride like omost 10 times..but still..fun~!!!hehehe...i stay at here from monday til trusday..2moro im goin bac..nw spendin the last night over here..dun feel like goin home..the last time i came here is to find her..tis time..the main reason is oso her..but to track bac our memories over here...hmm...wanderin around the 1st world hall..theme park..i still remember tat i was so stupid tat i made her cry on tat daywhen we at genting..but the most memorable part is when im goin bac..we both cried..i missed her so much tat time..n nw i missed her more..even tho tis time is wif frens..but still cant stop searchin 4 her...i found a lavender air purifier...wanted to buy 4 her..but i scared she changed..hmm..my god..holiday tis time seems to b a very special one again..well..i took alot of pics as well..will upload soon..i mean..tis is my 1st time uploadin pics..hv to slowly see..hehe...nw at genting's oldtown cafe...the cheapest cafe up here..n provide 24 hours service as well..so..jus grab a cup of coffee n take out my laptop..internet time~!!!stayin up here 4 days i feel like im oreadi detached from the world...my god..n i miss rice so much..
i mean i hv been eatin maggie mee cup 4 so many days..im goin crazy without rice~mum..plz cook alot of food when i go bac..i miss the dishes u made~~!!!!

holiday~~

finally...my exam's over~yay..2day last day of exam..malaysian study or aka sejarah..well..not to say tat the paper was hard nor easy..but who cares..nw its holiday~huh~finally..can rest 4 awhile..hv been so stress for two weeks..nw at least can relax abit..but another problem appears..no money~im broke~cannot go out..shoppin..watch movie..haizz...sad..god..plz giv me som money~plz~

news...

well..there is some changes in my life lately..i mean..i got a new laptop..which is mine...so nw i bring it to scl everyday..well,life's easier wif it tho..jus tat dunno y i cant register the wireless kl n i hv to use my fren's acc..2nd..my exam's gonna finish on 2moro..yay~!!finally...well tis exam wasn't tathard..but if i studied earlier..things will b easier..even tho i oways think of tat..but i never really did it..hehe..n...well...laltely,i saw her dad..i mean..dunno y..i dun really dare to face her family..i felt guilty for not tryin my very best to treat her..yea..stupid..we hvn't even get married..but yea..i felt tat guilty as well...last week i went bac to our secondary scl wif my fren..i saw her bro as well..i knew he saw me to n keep tryin to noticed me..but i jus dun dare to face him..sorry for bein so rude but..sorry...well..alot of memories flash bac as i was passin by the corridors..classes..i wanted to went up to our class last time to take a look...but coz of my new hair style..the dicipline teacher saw us n say tat coz of our ''handsom'' hairstyle..we'r onli allowed to sit in the canteen...so..no choice..but dun worry..i'lll b bac..bac to search for my memories again...

life...

today is going to be a great day,''but day won't be perfect without you..''

i can handle more than i think i can,''if and onli if i got you bside supporting me..''

things dun get better by worrying bout them,''but the fact is i'll never stop caring bout u..''

i can be satisfied if i try to do my best,''but my life wont be satisfied if there isn't u in the pic..''

there's oways somthin to be happy bout,''but the most is u..''

im goin to make som1 happy today,''be prepared coz the 1st one will be u..''

life is great,''so let ur hold our hand tight together n make the most of it..''