hmm...jus come bac from hometown..my grandma gonna stay wif us for somtims to redo her passport...well..today was quite a day..i mean my beloved student..she went to ulu langat alone..by lrt n by taxi..my god..was worry of her..i mean..a girl..go so so far to jus meet her bf n apologize..haizz..hope tat guy will appreciate her...but her courage touched me..she reminds me of those crazy stuff i did..the courage i have when i was wif u..the bicycle..club..scl...hmm...girl..i missed u so much...hope everythin will get better...

every single touchin moment..there will b somthin..somthin which link ur heart together wif the scence..every single sad momnet..there will oways b somthin..somthin which caught ur heart n pull it down..n every single memories...there will oways b somthin..somthin which jus stay in ur mind..n jus live there selfishly without noticin u...but coz of tat selfishness...it makes it more perfectly memorable...

wat is bout life..after all..wats the reason we humans live in the earth..wat the reason of our life...a question i oways ask myself...oways tryin my best to find the answer..love..intelligent..faith...elligant..l.i.f.e....tats the 4 reason ppl livin nwadays..but tats not y im livin nw...im still findin 4 the reason..try to smoke..try to drink..try to life like how ppl do..but i found out tat..those r not my style..wat is my style..i dunno..wat i noe is..im still tryin very very hard to live..its very sufferin..very lonely of bein alone..but cant held to stop..once i stop..it'll b a big big distance btween the world n me...

news

well..dunno wats wrong wif the life lately..is it tat coz of my bad luck startin to spread around or wat..people around me keep on hvin problems...haizz..dunno wat to do actually..jus hope tat they will b happy n been thro every single problems..dun like me..no matter how long i took..im still standin at the same place..time never stops moving..so y do u...but if u asked me bac tis question..i....i dunno..mayb..tis time i really did kept my promise to love her eternity..i jus...love her..

relief..

finally..yesterday was my 1st batch of form 5 students went for spm math exam..hmm..quite worry bout their results tho..but i know they oreadi try their best in it...jus pray tat they din did any silly mistakes..hmm...lately still keep thinkin of u...yup..your family had gone bac to miri...remember the time b4..every end of the year..even tho its holiday..but we wont b meetin each other coz u hv to go bac to miri..last year was the last year i wish u good luck on the way to miri..still remember u went to work at ur uncle's shop..how worry i was...silly...hmm..somtims i wander.wat am i doin..y cant i jus appreciate somthin when i hv it..but somtims i jus confuse y cant i jus find every single solution for every single question...i feel so dissapointed bout my life...start to seein things in grey colour...hv no joy...no sadness..the deepest sorrow in the heart...i dunno wat to do anymor..jus..i lost the colourful life i used to have b4...nw..everything jus twisted bac to grey again...again the lonely me...

2012

today i went to midvally n watched the movie ''2012''..for the movie..of wat i can say is...nice..awesome..but it did scares me..i mean..every1's talking bout the end of the world..wat if it really happens in the year 2012..i mean we still hv like 2 more years..wat if tat time really happen stuff like tat in the movie or even worst..i dunno where to find a plane n i cant even fly it even if i found it..but if it really happens..the 1st thing im gonna do is find u..i jus wanna get u n run as fast as i could..i jus wanna make sure tat u'r safe even if i cant do anythin..but i'll jus run...run as fast as i could..to keep u safe at least..hmm..sadly..these days im still keep thinkin of u...funny huh...after such a long time..hmm..mayb u've 4got bout me..mayb u had thrown tat feelin far away..bt im still holdin it..jus holdin it...

a normal life...normal activities...no surprises..no nth...haizz..life lately is jus too normal..yea..mayb after been through some serious chaos..hmm...dun feel like carin bout anythin so much lately...thoughts hv bcome so negative jus incase anythin happen..at least im ready to protect myself...but no matter wat..i still cant change wat had oreadi happened...i hate it every time when i think bout it..i mean..y..when theres a path tat u can jus walk..but u dun take it...u think tat the path u'r walkin nw will b good enuf to train u...no way man..snap out of it...it doesnt even helps at all..hmm..but nvm...cant care so much nw..cant do anythin..pray inside my heart as god wont helps bsides than im the 1 who's helpin myself...changin every single dreams into reality is jus fakes...but changin every thing into thoughts..tats wat im suppose to do nw...the last love hv sent to u but u took it n throw it away...the heart is broken enuf n its time to pick up n stick it bac..its time..for me to stand up...