searching operation START!!!!!!!!!!!

even tho i lost the wallet..but never giv up on searchin it yet..
13/8...day 1:after class..quickly rush 2 the bus station n try 2 look around..end up..din found any except alot of rubbish...try 2 ask the ppl around..(p.s.they r the person who oways wonderin around there n try 2 search somthin from the dusbin..)one of them r super glue addict..thro wat they told me..i hv 2 come again in the morning n try 2 go 2 the 1st floor of the parking floor..there i might get 2 meet the head of the pick pockets...n mayb i can try 2 ask from them...feelin scare but dun feel like givin up~!!!
14/8...day 2:afternoon after hvin lunch n send hy 2 the bus station..i went up 2 the parking floor n look around 4 the head..result...din spot him..but it was quite scary coz there's quite a number of those freaks n bastard walkin around..will try 2 find again 2moro~GAMBATEH~!!!

last present~!!!!!!

2day..tis year~my unluckiest year!~!!!!!!!everythin is gone..everythin~!!!!GONE!!!!!!!!!ntg left...even the last present~!!!pick pocket..dun let me hv 2 chance 2 meet u again..if u appear 2 b so lucky 2 let me meet u again..i dun care whether i'll go into jail anot but i swear i will punch u til u DIE~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

unreleaseable....

love..wat does tis word means actually..can any1 tell me..why...no matter how hard i try..it'll never change..does tis really really known as love..i try my very best 2 release everythin..no matter wat..i force myself not 2 see her again..not 2 talk 2 her again..even when her b'day..i dun even dare 2 hold my hp so tat i wont sms her or call her 2 wish her happy b'day..no matter how hard i try 2 make my life busy..end up..onli i realise..i cant..i cant let her go..no matter wat..i still miss her very very very much..tis feelin never change..jus like the olden times when we were 2gether..it never change..the feelin i had towards u...i love u...no matter wat u did...no matter how hard i try 2 hide up myself..but...i love u..it never change..it never will...

爱情并不是风筝
清风情寄何处，追风愿随风痕。

　　爱情并不是风筝，放出去还可以收回来，放出的爱情，收回来时总是伤心。爱情是一种病态，相爱的人相互纠缠，在爱情中总分不清谁会爱谁多一点，谁会爱谁 少一点。一旦有一天，当我们在爱情中，可以清清楚楚地计算爱的轻重。那么离爱情和我们分手的日子就不远了。于是，转过身去背对着爱情离开，把自己关在门 里，把爱情关在门外，只是这一转身往往就是门外爱情遍地，门里寂寞无边。

　　不管是如何爱过，不管是谁转过身，最终都会沉在这郁闷的海中，慢慢的沉溺，慢慢的麻醉。

　　守着曾经传过情话的那部电话，听不到它再响起熟悉的声音，也无法再去拨通那个号码。伤透的心页记下的，全是下雨天的心情，关闭了的心扉，也关住了冰封 的情素。学会独自在人群中游走，学会在喧闹中孤独，学会穿越感情的缝隙。寂寞地听着，风吹动窗帘的声音，寂寞地数着，时间在生活中溜走。而我们自己，已经 在时间中苍老，象城堡中孤独的女孩
看着每个夜晚的月儿，看着每个闪亮的星星，想象谁会手持宝剑，把我们从这心的城堡中救走。

　　总是看别人在舞台上表演着爱情，总是为别人的爱情，而流着自己的眼泪。而自己只是在心底，舞上那个没人注意的配角。用孤独，去衬托别人的爱情，所努力演出的也总是别人的表情。明知道那棵绚丽的爱情树上开着的都是别人的爱情之花。结下的都是别人的爱情之果。

　　酒，成了不可缺少的道具，只有在大醉后才敢表演真正的自己。只愿把一生都醉在这酒里，独品着这酒忧伤的浓郁。终于明白，爱情就象是模特儿身上那件美丽的衣，穿在别人的身上，总是耀眼而美丽，穿在自己的身上，就成了小丑的戏服。

　　爱情并不是风筝，放出去时总有一丝线儿，把它收回。放出的爱情，收回来时就多了一道伤痕，一道永远无法抹去的伤痕。爱情是一种病态，相爱的人醉里寻 欢，恨不得长醉不醒。在爱情中总分不清谁是真的用心，谁是真的在用情。一旦有一天，当我们在爱情中，可以清清楚楚地计算情的多少，那么，离爱情和我们分手 的日子，就不远了。于是，转过身去，背对着爱情离开，把自己关在窗里，把爱情关在窗外，只是，这一转身，往往就是一生，往往就是一世。

Nidji-bila aku jatuh cinta~

Bila aku jatuh cinta

Aku mendengar nyanyian

seribu dewa dewi cinta

Menggema dunia

Bila aku jatuh cinta

Aku melihat matahari

Kan datang padaku

Dan memelukku dengan sayang

Bila aku jatuh cinta

Aku melihat sang bulan

Kan datang padaku

Dan menemani aku

Melewati dinginnya mimpi

Melewati dinginnya mimpi…

Bila aku jatuh cinta… jatuh cinta

Bersama dirimu

Peluk aku…dan ciumlah aku

Sayang…




well,i feel in love wif another song of his..previous 1 it might b representin wat u wanna said 2 me..but tis 1 it represents the love n the sweetness u hv 2 me in the past..bt nw,i'll jus hv it thro tis song...hope u like it as well...

Nidji-Sudah~

salahkah aku, mencintaimu,

memilikimu, menyayangimu,

jangan paksakan kita untuk,

selalu bersama,

jangan paksakan kita untuk,

selalu mencinta...

salahkah aku,mencintaimu,

memilikimu,menyayangimu..

bila kita harus berpisah,

sudah,

biarkan ini semua berakhir,

sudah,

cinta memang tak harus milikinya...

jangan paksakan kita untuk selalu bersama,

jangan paksakan kita untuk ,selalu mencinta,

bila kita harus berpisah,

sudah,

biarkan ini semua berakhir,

sudah,

cinta memang tak harus milikinya~

bila kita harus berpisah,

sudah,

biarkan ini semua berakhir,

sudah,

cinta memang tak harus miliknya..




finally..i think i found a song which she wan me 2 hear it...i guess..well..nvm..i like tis song anyway...hmm..2day is her b'day..yea..n im celebratin wif her..in my mind of coz..i dun even dare 2 wish her happy b'day...jus hope tis year..she hv a very happy b'day..jus without my surprise n present plus wishes..i guess it wont b bad..or it'll b even better without it..who noes...

day by day~

hmm..its oreadi like omost 2 months..day by day..jus a blink of an eye..the time has pass so fast..i oways wanted the time 2 walk by slower so tat i hv more tim 2 spend wif her..nw..im confuse whether how i wan the time 2 b..im lost nw..in the middle of the ocean without any direction..b4 tis..u r my compass of life..i noe wat im doin n i noe wat i should do..bt nw..im totally confuse of wat im suppose 2 do..life without u..its jus like a chicken without a head..