takin examination from the heaven~

life..gettin harder n harder...but i blive..nw its jus som kind of examination given by God n u...i wish it could pass away soon..but i noe i hv 2 b patient..n wait..these few nights..i was so tired..but in the middle of the night i will still wake up in a sudden...n start 2 hate myself..y i will hv tis kind of life n in tis kind of situations...y b4 i been thro all tis,i learnt how 2 appreciate u 1st..y..there were alot of questions keep on appearin in my mind..but everytim when theres a question pop out..i will tell myself...kenn,u mus not giv up..work harder..stay calm..n things will pass n ur life will b better..even tho its jus a pray..but still..i blive~

beyond the expectation~

well..lately alot of things happen on my life..which..somtims im confuse of wat am i bein thro..but somtims..tats the motivation where i continue 2 live on my life..i mean..if...i can choose 2 live happily..y dun i choose tat path..well..yes,somtims..i seriously get dissapointed n sad..but yet..jus hope if can..dun say wat...at least i hope every1 around me could b happy..at least happier than me la...n...exspecially u...^^

confusion~

wat should i do nw..i really dunno..i mean..should i continue wat im doin nw..?or should i jus let it go..but i dun wanna let it go..som1 plz help me..plz drag me out from tat hell..plz..u..help me..m..

new born~!!!

again...no1 really view my blog..haizz..nvm..still i'll write..2day is the 1st day of my college life in segi kl..well,at 1st i'll register in tis scl coz i found tat there quite some numbers of hot chicks...but when my 1st lesson started..i felt like goin down 2 the management department n tell them i wanna quit~NO CHICKS!!!!!MY GOD!ARRGHHH!!!EVEN HANG YEW'S CLASS GOT AT LEAST 1..
MINE ZERO!!!!!!!!!DULAN~~~!!!!!haizz..nvm...oreadi register..study la..hope my life will b better coz it seriously goin down..very very down n unlucky le~!!!!nvm lo..then jus nw when chat wif baby..i still hv 2 teach her on...on..walao~du7lan oreadi lo..i mean..im teachin her 2 get along better wif him..which i wanna grab her from him..arrgghh~~~!!!u guys when read tis it might b confusin but..arrgghh~!!dulan...dulan dulan dulan~!!!unlucky year 2 me le~!!!

a nice morning n life...

wat a nice morning i had n a great life til i cant held myslef but 2 on the pc quickly n blog it...yea right..cut the bull shit...I HV A SUCK N FUCK UP MORNING N LIFE!!!!!!!!!!ARGGHH!!!!!!y do i hv a life like tis..??!!!damn shit..y will everythin turns up into tis..i hate it like tis!!!!!!i hate it...i wanna cry...but my tears oreadi dried...my heart was jus like a torn paper bein tear apart again n again into small small pieces...y would u do tis 2 me...y u keep wantin me..forcin me 2 giv up on u..y??!!!it used 2 b the world most beautiful love story but y is the endin like tis...god..r u playin wif my life or wat...y is everybody treatin me like tis!!!nw i understand wats the life i should hv..nw i understand wat kind of X'mas..birthday i should hv...alone..lonely..n cold...jus like tis blog...no matter how hard i try 2 write it down...no1 will jus come in anymor...it'll jus left there alone...n cold...

akward feel...

yesterday..i n my fren suppose 2 watch transformer in cinema..but when we wanted 2 buy the tickets..we found out tat its oreadi full...except 4 the midnight 1...so...bsides than watchin movie,we change our plan..after hvin our dinner we jus hang around in mv..dunno y...whn i 1st step into mv yesterday..my mind starts 2 recall bac all the memories i had..jus like a video tape recorder...i remember last years annivesary wif baby..we decided 2 come 2 mv...jus hang around 4awhile b4 we went 2 tuition...tat day...it was awful..i mean..at 1st we were very happy..but til when the time we gonna go..baby found out tat the diamond on her ring was gone..she was so sad n worried tat we keep 2 search 4 a lil small diamond in such big shopping complex..tat time,honestly,i swear i din even angry baby..not even bit...i was happy n sad at the same time...she was so care bout the things i gave her..n tat was the 1st valentine's present i gav her...n i was sad coz i cant really buy her a good ring..tat time i swear tat in the future..i'll work very very hard..earn alot of money..n giv her a very comfortable life...i was so so so love in her...haizz...but..dunno y..everythin seems 2 change nw...is it my fault....?..r its another test tat GOD is givin me...i really dunno...im so confused...but wat i noe is..i never let u go..i'll never do...n i'll oways love u~

still waiting~

i guess...this blog will not bein view by any1 for the mean time...i mean..no 1 really cares bout my life either...bsides than u...b4 these..ppl noe me coz of u...u bring the colour into my life..without u..it'll onli b black n white...i dunno wat 2 do anymore..somtims im stupid...shits will jus come out from my mouth..but i really din mean anythin..its jus tat..no matter wat i did or said..no1 will blive me..n every1 thinks tat im bad...tats all..wat did i did wrong in my life..y..its like my faith..no matter how hard i tried..end up..all the hard works will jus appears 2 b a piece of shit...crap..tat ppl will jus throw on the floor..step over it n walk away...